life sucks like nvr before..all im feelin now is pain.
pain pain pain n more pain...
alright,lets start from what exactly happen,
yesterdae.
i was out at sentosa...soon after that i was with tianqin,wendy,gera n lydia.
was suppose to meet esther at nite de lo..but.haiss,nvr le.yupp,well than we saw benjamin that whole group lo..nt exactly know them de...wha play true or dare,i am bein dare to kiss tianqin lips..alright dare le..than...i was at the beach...
i wrote on the sand,i realli do miss xiner.haiiss..my handphone pictures is all about what i write lo.
well,than we take mrt supposedly wan go back home de...just wen i was at the bugis station..xiner told me its a permanent break.her feelin has faded.totall..she ask me to give her up..i controlled..until payalebar,i get down(we have a date this cumin fri at singapore post=[)
i sat there,i cried n cried.kuku was beside me.i cried..lyk nvr before.i have no appetite to eat or anythin.
kuku ask if we shld go sum place,we have nvr go before.i was too weak too even answer..i have nt eaten for two daes.sigh...tha,benjamin(gabriel that group)called us...askin us to go down lake side...chang cheng(that haunted place next to super bowl)we took mrt down there.
then when we reach there...shock dao...got around 24 guys...plus me n kuku is 5 girls lo..haiiss.. go in to the chang cheng..i scared hor..wendy scare me until i more brave den her lo..hahas.
stupid kuku go n grab wenjie hand lahh...hahs..well,too bad sumone nvr go..if nt the situation wil change lo.haiiss...den*ahem...well,nvmx..
i was lost in the change cheng..stupid kuku too obsess over guys..wha...i hold the guy that hand...humji until hor...can go laosai lahhs...den i was lost....i veri sad lahh..thats why nt too scare..haiiss.than hours later they found me in the theatre...with lotsa glass n so dark,..i was lyk stonin there..haiiss.then we walk the whole chang cheng...stupid kuku hold the wen jie hand...until wha...cool man..hahas...
haiiss...got a white colour guy..cute man...but,...i got xin shang ren le lo..haiiss...overall,i still like yeo xin er!!!haiiss,esther lyk her zhihao den*_ _ _ _ got people lyk de..well,muz slowly forget her....than later we went to malay cementry...we first go chinese cementry den so scary...too bad that guy who hold my hand in the changcheng*not gonna mention*noe there..if not i not so scare le..hahas..wendy tan still zhou TAO HUA YUN leh..
the cementry so scary..its dark..i walk alone..behind me got two boys..i veri scare la...i stil see people tiao tang...is the ghost go in the body de..haiiss...sad sad..i scare.but...im sadder thats why i not that scold..i just walk all the way straight..my whole mind..im thinkin of xiner..haiiss..nth else..
after that me n wendy go to the gabriel house n ton...wha...hahas...haiiss..
a veri sad dae lo..
joanna love xiner.
she'll nvr noe what im goin thru.
i cant sleep,afraid of wakin up with tears in my eyes.
afraid of spendin the nite alone,not knowin what wil i do.
afraid of missing you,scare that i will break down.
i dun mind not being together,
but all i wan,is to at least stay as frens.
if ure gonna sae u dun love me anymore,
i will get out of ur life immediately.
wont u feel the pain,im feelin rite now?
its just like a knife,stabbin thru my heart.
i cant find a reason why,i love u so much.
hold on or to let go,i dunno...
i will just slowly let my feelins fade..
when will the dae comes,when ive forgotten u?
the dae will come,when everyone gets to see my smile.
when my heart is mend..but i guess,somehow...
it will be a long wae ahead.
you once promise,nvr to make me cry anymore.
nvr to rve break my heart.
now,a word 'sorri n u ended our story.
u left me alone,sufferin in this world.
dreams have a wae of fadin away.
but sumhow,im still holdin on to dream..
that will nvr cum true n its impossible.
i dun wan to see u sufferin alone,
i wan to help u thru.
whether as a lover or a fren..
i want to help you.i seriously wan to.
it takes sumone special to make a person smile,
when there are alreadi tears in her eyes.
i wan u to be the one,
to be there to wipe my tears away.
i noe im nt suppose to sae this,
but still,
xiner,i love you.
i seriously realli do.
